Posts Tagged ‘testimony’

Damning the President to hell, cussing out gay people in news feeds, burning abortion clinics, calling every dark colored person you see something I can’t even type, tweeting “hell’s happy now that so and so died”, gagging on public media when you discuss same sex marriage, blaming gays for 9/11, hateful speech because you think the Bible justifies your hate of certain people, calling teen girls who “sleep around” terrible names, wishing someone’s child dies because it was conceived out of wedlock, jumping in on the face book bandwagon of several who bash our leaders with wishes to murder or “take them out” – we call ourselves Christ followers??? Seriously! What’s the difference between us and the world who we’re supposed to be converting, praying for their lost souls, showing God’s love and being an example of Christ in all that we say and do! Shame on us! Arrogance, slander, hate, etc. does just the opposite and God hates our sins in doing all this too! Yes, I know God got mad but that’s a whole other topic: righteous anger. He doesn’t condone us using our anger to inflict hate or hurt. You’ll have to research that personally. I never said I agree with everything everyone does on this earth and I do call sin what God calls sin but I can’t justify my hate, bullying, hurtful and mean speech against anyone else just as I don’t justify theirs against me – a Christ follower. No, this won’t totally stop the way we’re treated or looked at as Christ followers but for cryin’ out loud, let’s practice what we preach, what Christ preached and show others His Truth in us, our lives and our words! Others deserve the same choice at grace, mercy, love and forgiveness as we got! None of us are worthy but Christ died for all of us!
Never, once, will you hear a lost person proclaim, “Yes, I’m so thankful for the cruel ways I was treated and all the hate. All that is what showed me my need for a personal relationship with Christ.” I love my fellow Christians, just as I love lost people, and I’m not hating on you fellow Christians, but I am asking you, like I have to do, to “look in the mirror” and see if your testimony: your words, actions, life, even your thoughts are furthering His kingdom or running off the lost! We should want what God wants for each and every one of us to know Him, His love, forgiveness and how He can change us and give us an eternity with Him! Let’s humble our hearts before God, ask for forgiveness, ask for His love to flow through us as we change the way we defend our faith, take part in political discussions, take our stands and live as an example of Christ in everything we say and do!

My mind’s all over the place while my heart is searching for just the right words to express the calmed silence I feel right now. Monday, one of our church’s youth unexpectedly stopped breathing and passed away. She was only 15. Since then, I have felt drawn to her family, the comments left on facebook from her friends and mostly drawn to God. This girl left a huge impact on everyone she encountered in her short life. Some, who had only met her once, recall her kindness, her sweet spirit and her love for God. WOW! What a convicting reminder of the effect you, we, can have on people, even when we meet for only one time!
Her brother quoted something she’d written in her journal one day and it brought to mind my blog entries and what people might read one day, when I’m gone, that I wrote. Sure, journal entries are more private but they were thoughts she had between her and God. I started keeping a prayer journal, several months ago but have become lax. Another conviction to become more consistent with that. See, that family is continuously being reminded by her friends and family, fellow students, church members, what their daughter and sister meant to so many people. There are so many blessings being shared with them right now, and I’m sure they weren’t even aware of many of them. It has to comfort them to know the true person she was even when she thought no one was watching. John 13:34 & 35 “A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another; as I have loved you, that you also love one another. By this all will know that you are My disciples, if you have love for one another.”
It made me wonder what people would say about me and my testimony after I go to join my Heavenly Father one day. I want people to see God in me, feel His love through me and know Him better because of what He’s done for me!
It’s been truly amazing to go through this part of their journey with this family, even as somewhat of an “outsider”. They’re allowing God’s plan to be followed through, they’re accepting His reasons even though they don’t understand, they’re continuing to praise Him in the midst of this loss, they’re clinging to other Christians and experiencing all the love He has for them. No, all this won’t take her place but being able to appreciate beauty in a picture of a butterfly on the beach & letting it brighten their day, being able to read facebook comments and respond with thanks to everyone of them, relying on scripture to carry them through and so much more that they’re doing the past couple of days has shown me just how much God means to each of them. I would expect no less from the testimony of that amazing, young, Christian lady who is enjoying seeing the face of her Heavenly Father. Such a short life but she lived it to the fullest and she served her FATHER so well. God had an awesome purpose for her and we’re seeing it minute by minute! I pray that many are saved even today as they go the viewing and then again tomorrow as they go to her funeral to say “see you soon Meagan!” It’s amazing how God can take a stranger’s life, a young girl (I barely knew her), to change the life of one of His other children, still remaining, for the time being, on this earth. I can’t wait to see you again, Meagan, to thank you for your testimony, your inspiration and to just get to hang out with you in Heaven. I know God is “well pleased” with you! We all love you!

Without going into any real details about my life right now…..have you ever been in a similar situation? You do everything, within your power, to keep communication open, do your best, make some one else look good in spite of their wrong choices and cover them but then BAMM! Right out of left field, they nail you with betrayal and animosity toward YOU? What’s up with that? How’d it get so turned around? Now, it’s lack of trust and watching your back so as to not be caught off guard again or you find yourself walking on glass and afraid of what they’ll do next? Sound familiar? Well, here I am again! I hate it, absolutely hate it!!! How did my wanting to do right get turned around into me having to defend my self and stand up for who I am? How do they get away with their mistakes causing my heartache? Not a fun place to be, let me tell you first hand!

Begging God to show me how to handle this undeserved and sickening position I’m in, He brings me straight to I Peter. Not just one special verse but numerous!

1st – the admonition – “…be holy in your conduct, because as it is written, Be holy, for I am holy.” I Peter 1:15-16

2nd – our role as strangers in this world – I Peter 2:11,12: “Beloved, I beg you as sojourners (we are foreigners here) and pilgrims, abstain from fleshly lusts which war against the soul, having your conduct honorable among the Gentiles (Non-believers), that when they speak against you, as evildoers, they may, by your good works, which they observe, glorify God in the day of visitation.”

3rd – our obligation as Christians to submit voluntarily to authority: I Peter 2:13-17 “….For this is the will of God, that by doing good you may put to silence the ignorance of foolish men – as free, yet not using liberty as a cloak for vice, but as bond servants of God. Honor all people…..” Nelson Study Bible “Our actions should make our accusers speechless, like a muzzle placed over their mouths.”

4th – our submission to our “masters” (good or bad), I Peter 2:18-25 “…be submissive to your masters with all fear, not only to the good and gentle, but also to the harsh…..when you do good and suffer, if you take it patiently, this is commendable before God…..because Christ also suffered for us, leaving us an example that you should follow His steps.” (oooh, that’s a hard one, huh?) “It’s about injustice, about people being treated worse than they deserve.”

5th – our temptation to return evil for evil, I Peter 3:9 “not returning evil for evil or reviling for reviling, but on the contrary blessing, knowing that you were called to this, that you may inherit a blessing.” It’s so hard but we have the Holy Spirit within us who will help us with this required, yet huge, amount of self control! vs. 10b-12 “Let him refrain his tongue from evil, And his lips from speaking deceit. Let him turn away from evil and do good; Let him seek peace and pursue it. For the eyes of the Lord are on the righteous, And His ears are open to their prayers; But the face of the Lord is against those who do evil.”

6th – our assurance and trust in Him, I Peter 3:14b-17 “And do not be afraid of their threats nor be troubled…..For it is better, if it is the will of God, to suffer for doing good than for doing evil.”

I know this entire book is really directed specifically to us as Christians and our personal testimonies to others (non-believers) as we live among them in this world but I also know that these verses also apply to my present situation and have brought me peace, through the tears, trust in Him and not man, and His faithfulness to once again “be for me and not against me” which is all I need to get through this situation! Be encouraged and remember this is only temporal! Praise God for that!