Posts Tagged ‘death’


Art by Carlos S.

I’ve never responded well to being scared into doing something or believing something so I hesitate on certain subjects being handled that way. However, when it comes to our eternity, I know that God wants us all to know the seriousness, the pain, the agony, the absolute horror that will be experienced if we go to hell because we died in our sinfulness and never repented and made Him Lord of our lives. Thinking positively about eternity, hoping your way into heaven, being a good person, denying the existence, hoping your friends & family pray you out of hell, none of these will prevent you from an eternity in hell.

There’s no softening of this subject: Whether you believe in Hell or not won’t change the reality of it when you’re thrown there “If anyone’s name was not found written in the book of life, he was thrown into the lake of fire” Rev. 20:15 At the time it happens you won’t be choosing your sins over the life you could’ve had, you’ll be begging NOT to go there! Once you die, it’s too late, no 2nd chances after death! Choosing your sins over choosing forgiveness, love, mercy, grace and the freedom over death isn’t CHOOSING hell – but – you are sadly mistaken if you think you’d rather be in hell than in heaven. You have no real understanding of what hell really is then!!!! No one chooses hell! But you can choose life – for all of Eternity! Matthew 25:46 “And these will go away into eternal punishment, but the righteous into eternal life.”

I have several family and friends who aren’t choosing life in eternity and it breaks my heart to know I won’t spend eternity with you but even worse,to know your eternity in hell will NEVER end and that it’s a decision I can’t make for you. I continue to pray for you, love you and share God’s Truth and Love with you. We’re not even promised the rest of today! Don’t wait any longer!

I remember someone who was questioning whether they believed or not once posed the question, “what if it (what the Bible says) is all real? I guess I shouldn’t take the chance with my life, huh?” Hint: there is no “what if”; you believing doesn’t validate it’s worth or truth! There are a lot of things in this life I never wanted to believe was possible or likely that humans would do or inflict on other humans, yet, even with all my disbelief, people die daily, due to these horrific things I’d rather not believe. Just sayin’ (and that’s a slight example of how your disbelief won’t change reality)

You do have a choice: die in your sins (what we all deserve) or live for eternity in freedom over your sins (something none of us deserves) thanks to God sending His Son to die for us! Your choices end when you die. It won’t be a big party in Hell! It will be HELL in every sense of the word! Matthew 13:42 “and they will throw them into the furnace and burn them. There will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.”


I see you running, in all directions: crying, screaming, confused – asking why?

I reach for you in the darkness but I can’t seem to get you to reach for me.

The light all around me shows you where I am but you still strain to grab hold.

The evil surrounds you and pulls you every which way deceiving you as you run.

I hate watching you spiral into the darkness deeper and deeper.

I know you can see the light. I know you can feel its warmth. Why won’t you come this way!

There are so many in the darkness, with you, pulling you with their lies.

They promise to numb your pain, to walk you through but your pain won’t go away….it’s still there when you wake…

still in the darkness….

Your heart is in pieces, your spirit is broken, the emptiness can only be filled by One!

You’re in danger! You’re scared, mad, sad and lonely even with all the others joining you in that great darkness!

Hurry! Before it’s too late, RUN TO THE LIGHT! You’re falling fast and I’m afraid I won’t be able to ever reach you again if you don’t try….

One day there will be no more darkness for me to see but will you be with me in the light? Will you be safe from that darkness too?

You choose to stay there; I don’t understand why.  You choose to hide, to run, to beat yourself up – it scares me!

If only you could see from my perspective! If only you could know where that darkness leads! I’m begging you to take one small step toward the light – PLEASE!

I couldn’t sleep last night because visions of you – the darkness – the evil – the fear of where it’s taking you – wouldn’t leave my mind!

My tears won’t save you! My heart, full of love for you, won’t pull you out! My words won’t grab hold of you and yank you out, safe on this side!

I hate the evil in this world but the father of evil, Satan, is working throughout this world and he has so many followers – willing to do his work! He is who is to blame, not God! He is who used that evil person to take your friend that sad day! Yeah, choices were made that were wrong but still the evil lies with the one who held that gun, not God! He wants to help you heal! He wants to save you and give you happiness, true happiness! Leaving this world one day will be an option but it’s not yours! It’s His timing! He still has a purpose for you on this earth! I can pray! He can do so much more for you than I can! Please come back! Please let Him! I’m begging you to let Him save you from this darkness you’re running through right now! You can’t escape the hurt that way! You have to allow yourself to feel, allow yourself to be helped and allow yourself to live! I’m here for you and you know you have access to me anytime you need me – please reach out! Love you Sweet A

My mind’s all over the place while my heart is searching for just the right words to express the calmed silence I feel right now. Monday, one of our church’s youth unexpectedly stopped breathing and passed away. She was only 15. Since then, I have felt drawn to her family, the comments left on facebook from her friends and mostly drawn to God. This girl left a huge impact on everyone she encountered in her short life. Some, who had only met her once, recall her kindness, her sweet spirit and her love for God. WOW! What a convicting reminder of the effect you, we, can have on people, even when we meet for only one time!
Her brother quoted something she’d written in her journal one day and it brought to mind my blog entries and what people might read one day, when I’m gone, that I wrote. Sure, journal entries are more private but they were thoughts she had between her and God. I started keeping a prayer journal, several months ago but have become lax. Another conviction to become more consistent with that. See, that family is continuously being reminded by her friends and family, fellow students, church members, what their daughter and sister meant to so many people. There are so many blessings being shared with them right now, and I’m sure they weren’t even aware of many of them. It has to comfort them to know the true person she was even when she thought no one was watching. John 13:34 & 35 “A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another; as I have loved you, that you also love one another. By this all will know that you are My disciples, if you have love for one another.”
It made me wonder what people would say about me and my testimony after I go to join my Heavenly Father one day. I want people to see God in me, feel His love through me and know Him better because of what He’s done for me!
It’s been truly amazing to go through this part of their journey with this family, even as somewhat of an “outsider”. They’re allowing God’s plan to be followed through, they’re accepting His reasons even though they don’t understand, they’re continuing to praise Him in the midst of this loss, they’re clinging to other Christians and experiencing all the love He has for them. No, all this won’t take her place but being able to appreciate beauty in a picture of a butterfly on the beach & letting it brighten their day, being able to read facebook comments and respond with thanks to everyone of them, relying on scripture to carry them through and so much more that they’re doing the past couple of days has shown me just how much God means to each of them. I would expect no less from the testimony of that amazing, young, Christian lady who is enjoying seeing the face of her Heavenly Father. Such a short life but she lived it to the fullest and she served her FATHER so well. God had an awesome purpose for her and we’re seeing it minute by minute! I pray that many are saved even today as they go the viewing and then again tomorrow as they go to her funeral to say “see you soon Meagan!” It’s amazing how God can take a stranger’s life, a young girl (I barely knew her), to change the life of one of His other children, still remaining, for the time being, on this earth. I can’t wait to see you again, Meagan, to thank you for your testimony, your inspiration and to just get to hang out with you in Heaven. I know God is “well pleased” with you! We all love you!