Posts Tagged ‘change’

The acceptance of who we claim to be seems so important and necessary to our existence on this earth. Yet, our acceptance is really quite the opposite of what God requires of us. He tells us to “deny” ourself, (Luke 9:23 “if any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow me.”) and to be more like Him and less like us! Yes, He takes us as we are but then the changes take place and that’s when it’s evident that we want what He wants. The stubborn, strong willed, resistant persons we are do not reflect total submission & true repentance.

Don’t limit God (Luke 1:37 “Nothing is impossible with God.”) by telling Him, like you tell the world: “this is just who I am and you can either accept me or not. I can’t change; (James 4:7 “Submit therefore to God. Resist the devil and He will flee from you.”) I’ve tried. I’m not changing for anyone!” Good news: God is not just anyone!! He created you and He’s the only One who can change you to be more like Him & less like You. John 3:30 “He must increase, but I must decrease.”

We must ask God to make us willing to accept the changes He wants to make in us then have faith that He will “complete the good work” Phil. 1:6 He has in mind for us. We can trust God! Jer. 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”


Who do you see when you look in the mirror?

Scary? Yes. Do you dare? Take a look, as I did, in the mirror and see if you like who you’ve become! Possibly the most convicting and humbling experience you’ll have today! It was for me!

This is always a very hard thing to do but I was forced to take a long, deep look in the mirror today and no, I didn’t like what or who I saw. I’m not talking about being superficial or prideful. I mean really seeing who I was on the inside, like the way God sees me.  It can be totally humbling and convicting, to say the least.

It can come from a stranger seeing you falsely for their first impression of you. It can come from a family member  or old friend pointing out something you swore you’d never become. It can even come from the way a child looks at you when you’ve said or done something. No matter how it comes, when it does, it’s brutal to hear. It’s even more devastating to see when you actually do dare to take that look at the reflection that you honestly thought was that of God. Do you see love, gentleness, kindness, etc? or do you see selfishness, insecurity, stubbornness, anger, hatred, spite, etc?

Gal. 5:22 “But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness and self-control. “

I’m not going to share what I saw today but know that it was time and it convicted me to ask God to help me work on the imperfections I saw, to help me become more like Him and less like me – that part of me I don’t like. It doesn’t really matter how I look on the outside but what’s on the inside does flow over to the outside and people are affected by who I am on the inside.

How long’s it been since you’ve taken that look? Be prepared – it won’t be easy! Have a box of kleenex handy if you’re willing to be honest and transparent in front of God! (like you can be anything but, haha) Ask yourself, like I had to ask me, “Do people see Him when they see me or do they see the me I want them to see?” It’s an ongoing battle but I do want them to see the me He wants me to be. I want them to see Him in me!

I’m still a work in progress but I think I’m well on my way if I didn’t listen to the mean criticism of those who only want to hurt me and listen to the heart of my heavenly Father who wants to better me! I know my value to Him (Psalm 139) and even with some much needed improvements I’m still not as bad as the enemy wants to convince me I am.

So, I’ll continue trying, and with God’s help, and a deaf ear to Satan, I’ll become even more of a reflection of God  and the woman in the mirror that I long to see.

Time Out LeeAnne!

Posted: June 8, 2010 in Just Me
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Ok, I get it! God gave me a “time out” yesterday. Well, maybe it could’ve been just a foolish stunt on my part but…..I fell and injured my right ankle and foot, resulting in needing to stay another day in AL instead of driving back home to AR today. (playing b’ball with my teen in flip flops-me, not him) CRASH, down Mom fell and twisted. But the interesting part – it’s been pretty relaxing and stress free just hanging out another day, here with family. I was facing going home to our reality and some stressful, hard to handle issues when God changed my direction totally. After listening to the exact sermon I needed to hear this past Sunday, about direction and God changing ours…God’s timing is so perfect! He always knows just what I need to hear and exactly for that very minute. He also sent me a song that warmed my soul as we lifted our voices Sunday, an old familiar praise song but it, too, was so perfect and keeps coming to mind. The song was “wait upon the Lord, strength will come as wait upon the Lord….” as it talks about the weak and Him not being weary….I need every word right now in my reality. Isaiah 40:31 (New International Version) 31 “but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength.They will soar on wings like eagles;they will run and not grow weary,they will walk and not be faint.”
I’m not dreading going home, the great part is to see my wonderful husband, but also knowing that God will carry us through this part of our journey also, as He always has in the past. We haven’t quite gotten out of the pit that being unemployed for 14 months landed us in… at times it feels like we’re turtles slowly crawling our way out of a deep slippery bowl and we keep falling back in….but there is hope and there is light at the end of the tunnel….and it’s all HIM! For that I’m extremely thankful and for a home church that always feels just like home in AL. We miss our home church family! What a blessing to know they are always there when we need them but more importantly, that He is always with us, rather in AL or AR! He meets us right where we are!