I know, strange title but if you’re familiar with what we’ve been through, you will understand the ability to say “thanks” is obedience to God’s Word where He says to “give thanks in all things”. So, no I’m not being ungrateful, just living in the moment of today and enjoying the blessings He’s given us and how faithful He’s been in sustaining us! This is actual progress if you think about the fact that we were living second to second, then moment to moment, so day to day is moving closer to where we should be. We will dream again about our futures. We will look forward to things again. We are experiencing hope again just not looking too far out in the distance, staying right here, just today! That’s great to us, believe me!
Some times when we have family devotions, the kids ask to go around and do our little “give thanks through the abc’s” and it can get be somewhat of a challenge. We start with “a” and that person has to name something that begins with “a” that they’re thankful for, even if it’s a little difficult. Think about some of the letters. It can get really hysterical but mostly the kids are serious and very thankful. Sometimes something comes to mind that we don’t normally consider and it’s a real eye opener. It’s a great reminder of all the blessings God has provided for us! So, today, when you’re filling your bellies, we will be for sure, remember everything, every little and big detail of your blessings and Have an amazing THANKFUL THANKSGIVING! Our God is so Good all the time! Then become as restful as a stuffed slug deserves to be for Just Today! God bless all of you!
Thanks for Just Today!
Wow! It’s Fall already and it’s amazingly beautiful out here! God is quite the artist! I love this time of the year, It’s my favorite! Scott and I were talking about how we can’t believe it’s already mid November – where did the month go?
The title of this blog came from my daydreams the other day. While watching a sweet little love story on Lifetime, actually something worth watching that day, one of the guy characters was asked for his favorite destination. He replied “Tuscany in the Fall”. I immediately started dreaming. Scott and I have always favored the vineyard type style of wallpaper, pictures, etc. for our kitchen and dining room because of the feeling we get when we view Italian set villas, couples sipping on wine, relaxing and enjoying each other’s company, quite romantic to say the least.
I instantly felt relaxed and distracted, which I needed. See we may be at the lighted part of our tunnel and be filled with hope but we’re still struggling and fighting to get out of the pit our journey dug for us! The work is steady – Praise God! The hours are long. Our Heavenly Father continues to sustain us and is so amazingly faithful! We are so blessed yet continuously tired, rushed, angry, sad, all of it, the feelings flood over us on a regular basis. But on Sunday, there was a calm, a peace, and it was so easy to escape into my daydream. God knew I needed that – all of it! (Scott did too, needed it, that is.)
All knowing as He is, I trust He will deliver many more daydreams and even some doses of amazing reality as we continue to pull ourselves out and rely on Him for our strength! Looking forward to being all the way over there on the other side but never forgetting how He carried us through!
It’s been quite a journey – 14 months to be more specific. I’m not sure I can get through this part of it but I have to share the hope, the faithfulness of our Father and the trust for Him to continue sustaining us on this side too! Why do I call it “the other side”? Well, my husband was finally called this past month, September 22nd, for a full time job. Yes, go ahead and celebrate with us, take a moment to praise God with us and thank Him for His perfect timing! He is an awesome God!
I don’t think it’s hit really! He just got his first paycheck, shouldn’t it by now? I don’t know what’s normal anymore. The tears still come but they’re not full of hurt and sadness. The heavyness and overwhelming feelings are still there but they’re sitting along side of HOPE now! The fear has been replaced with TRUST and constant reminders of His promises to us. The lack of trust in man has been replaced with the assurance of God’s LOVE and His name: Jehovah Jireh – “The Lord will provide!” Jehovah Jireh – “The Lord will be seen!”
“God’s infinite provision is always GREATER than our finite problems.”
Just like in the Bible story about Abraham and the sacrifice of his son: “As he climbed Mount Moriah with his son, Abraham was confident that God would meet every need. On what could Abraham depend?
He certainly could not depend on his feelings, for there must have been terrible pain within as he contemplated slaying his son on the altar. He loved his only son, but he also loved his God and wanted to obey Him. Nor could Abraham depend on other people. Sarah was at home, and the two servants who accompanied him were back at the camp. We thank God for friends and family members who can help us carry our burdens, but there are some trials in life that we must face alone. It is only then that we can see what our Father really can do for us! Abraham could depend on the promise and provision of the Lord.”
So… because this is already lengthy and I could go on for days…maybe another day: let me leave this piece of advice to you for your journey: seek God’s will, wait (the hardest part), trust God’s promises and expect His provision because of your obedience. It’s His promise, have faith in the faithful Heavenly Father! Thank you so much Lord for ALL you’ve done, for this journey and for never leaving us to go through any of it alone! I can tell right now, there will be more because the overwhelming feeling of thanks and praise won’t allow me to remain silent! He is truly the BEST!!!
I know “God hath not promised sun without rain, joy without sorrow, peace without pain” and so on……but……
Ugh! Major Ugh!
I’m so tired of “HARD” when we’ve already had “HARD”! When does it end or actually get “Easy” for more than a minute here and there with the here and there’s - few and far between?
You know how when you’ve more than earned and then finally get a vacation scheduled and you have to work extra hard the couple of days right before it to even get to go, as if you have to go and prove you actually even deserve it in the first place? Or you get a minute taste of “easy” and you get your hopes up thinking “yes, finally, I can breathe again!” and woosh, the air gets let out of your balloon again but this time you’re not even holding on so you hit bottom really hard and start all over AGAIN! Or you tend to see a hint of light at the end of the tunnel and woah! you’re in the pitch black dark again and there’s no relief in sight, let alone an inclination that it will get better?!
When did living month to month become living day to day and then change to living minute to minute? Well, actually it all started about a year ago when my husband lost his job. There have been so very many of those infamous “go forward 3 steps and back 5 steps” to our life in the past year. So many minutes: “praise – one minute and HELP ME GOD, I CAN’T BREATHE, LET ALONE KEEP MY HEAD ABOVE WATER!” you know those type minutes?
The only way we’ve managed is because God has carried us, held us and never left us! Our brains are overwhelmed, our hearts broken, dreams shattered and energy drained but our faith is still in our Heavenly Father who has never changed. Our strength is lacking and our hope is vague at times but we draw more strength from Him and any hope we’re able to achieve is only In Him!
It’d be so much easier if Jesus came back today and took us home but we see that’s not the plan right now. So, that tells us that there’s more to do here, on earth, for Him, prior to His return. I don’t have to like how man thinks they get to control so much of my life in the financial decisions, jobs, mortgage, bills, etc. but I do have to live among their limited control and remind myself that God is bigger than this, and He is really the One in control! Not man! They may continue making it difficult and so very hard to get up out of bed but they don’t get to determine my destiny! They don’t get to have the final say!
In studying the book of Esther right now, it is so evident to me the power that God has over even a king’s heart and how He is able to change a situation that looks absolutely hopeless (in man’s eyes) to be exactly how He wants it to work! I have to force myself to feel the impact of that power! I have to dig deep, crying from the pit of my stomach and reach up to the Hand that wants to pull me out of my helplessness!
Like I said earlier, He’s always been there. Even when difficulties in life hide Him from my view. “Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.” (Hebrews 11:1) Faith is knowing, no matter what, that God’s hand is there all the time. There’s a song that says, “When you can’t trace His hand, trust His heart.” We’ve been there so many times. You have to know that even when you can’t see Him, He’s there. The times I can’t see God in my life I have to keep moving back toward the Word, His promises, His people until the only view is God. It’s only then that I can see His hand again!
Sometimes it’s even hard to simply count your blessings in the midst of “HARD” but it’s absolutely crucial to your “survival”. You have to be reminded on a daily basis that there is even one more thing to be thankful for, one more thing you might have accomplished, one more awful moment that you survived and then realize it was all because of GOD! Be sure to give Him the glory, give Him the praise and put all your heartfelt faith and hope in only Him! He will sustain you! He will hold you! He will never leave you! He loves you! He knows all about what you’re going through so let Him guide you through it! He wants to dry my tears and mend my heart! He’s my Father!
We have this bad habit of not watching the news that often because of it being so depressing and disheartening but we do tend to listen out for the weather end of it though. I’ll be honest when I say that Friday, June 12th, came by surprise and only after I’d already arrived at work, Scott had gone the opposite direction from home and our 2 kids were at our home “alone”.
We talked by phone once and then they were supposed to call me back a little later. It was only lightly raining at that point but looking a little scary to them. I knew there was nothing I could do from work nor if I were home so I did the best thing I knew: I prayed non-stop for my kids and husband. I didn’t know exactly when he’d be driving back home and I didn’t know what exactly was going on home with my kids. I just kept busy at work! Every time the phone rang, I prayed it was them. The call never came. The power went off at home shortly after we talked. Our phone is electrically charged. (note to self: get another phone)
The lights flickered a little and even went off once at work but we were fine there. It looked pretty bad here and there but finally cleared and the sun came out. I still had not heard from the kids. Scott finally called me and said he’d talked to our neighbor who went over to check on the kids but they didn’t come to the door. I only trusted God that they were playing upstairs and never heard her. She assured us the worst part of the storm was over and the house was fine, just no power. Scott also told me he was perfectly safe and the weather was fine to drive home!
I was somewhat relieved but still wanted to talk to my “babies”. I completely left them in God’s hands. That was a little hard to this mom who is used to being there with them during the storms and bringing them comfort and assurance. They had each other and they had God! He could take such better care than I could anyway. I let that comfort me! I prayed for distractions for them from the lack of power, for love and peace between them while they entertained each other, for patience and tolerance and mostly for their safety!
I finally arrived home about 3 hours later. God had all of it under control! After checking the kids who were playing, having never heard our neighbor and were excited that the power had just come back on prior to my arrival, I checked the dog outside. Next to his house were 2 huge limbs. I was afraid he had been trapped but he was fine, tail just a waggin’ and safe inside the dog house. Then I walked the property. My heart fell as I approached the side pasture! Leaves, tree branches and limbs were all over our yard. But that was minimal compared to the side pasture. A huge pine tree had uprooted and fell right across the pond, blocking more than half of the width of the pond. The colt who was in that pasture came charging toward me. I was a little nervous that she was hurt but she wasn’t – just terrified! She walked toward the tree with me and we checked out the miraculous direction it fell – nowhere near her nor the house! It must have made a horrible splash! She didn’t want to leave my side as she jumped at every noise the pond made with frogs. I couldn’t help but fall to my knees as I took in what could have happened and how God made sure it didn’t this time! See, we’ve had trees fall at 3 different houses with a couple doing some pretty massive damage, in our eyes! Each time God has kept our family safe and this time was no different! When you realize what you could’ve lost – your family – and that you didn’t – your heart can’t help but rejoice, give thanks and praise Him “in the storm”!
That night, my daughter and I got to enjoy a rodeo together and it seemed as if that nightmare of an afternoon had never happened……till the next day during the clean up:) For all of this experience and the end result: We are truly thankful and know firsthand, once again, He is truly a Good God!
The uprooted tree that fell across the pond in the side pasture.
Sweet baby Carey going for a drink of water days later.
I always love the "calm after the storm!" Me and my baby girl at the rodeo!
I saw this and fell in love! This is my Heavenly Daddy! I find such comfort in His loving arms and pray you will too! Our Abba who loves us so unconditionally! I have permission to copy this to share with you and pray you’ll be blessed by it too! Love, LeeAnne
My Child…
You may not know me, but I know everything about you…Psalm 139:1
I know when you sit down and when you rise up…Psalm 139:2
I am familiar with all your ways…Psalm 139:3
Even the very hairs on your head are numbered…Matthew 10:29-31
For you were made in my image…Genesis 1:27
In me you live and move and have your being…Acts 17:28
For you are my offspring…Acts 17:28
I knew you even before you were conceived…Jeremiah 1:4-5
I chose you when I planned creation…Ephesians 1:11-12
You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book…Psalm 139:15-16
I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live…Acts 17:26
You are fearfully and wonderfully made…Psalm 139:14
I knit you together in your mother’s womb…Psalm 139:13
And brought you forth on the day you were born…Psalm 71:6
I have been misrepresented by those who don’t know me…John 8:41-44
I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love…1 John 4:16
And it is my desire to lavish my love on you…1 John 3:1
Simply because you are my child and I am your father…1 John 3:1
I offer you more than your earthly father ever could…Matthew 7:11
For I am the perfect father…Matthew 5:48
Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand…James 1:17
For I am your provider and I meet all your needs…Matthew 6:31-33
My plan for your future has always been filled with hope…Jeremiah 29:11
Because I love you with an everlasting love…Jeremiah 31:3
My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore…Psalm 139:17-18
And I rejoice over you with singing…Zephaniah 3:17
I will never stop doing good to you…Jeremiah 32:40
For you are my treasured possession…Exodus 19:5
I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul…Jeremiah 32:41
And I want to show you great and marvelous things…Jeremiah 33:3
If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me…Deuteronomy 4:29
Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart…Psalm 37:4
For it is I who gave you those desires…Philippians 2:13
I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine…Ephesians 3:20
For I am your greatest encourager…2 Thessalonians 2:16-17
I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles…2 Corinthians 1:3-4
When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you…Psalm 34:18
As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart…Isaiah 40:11
One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes…Revelation 21:3-4
And I’ll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth…Revelation 21:3-4
I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus…John 17:23
For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed…John 17:26
He is the exact representation of my being…Hebrews 1:3
He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you…Romans 8:31
And to tell you that I am not counting your sins…2 Corinthians 5:18-19
Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled…2 Corinthians 5:18-19
His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you…1 John 4:10
I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love…Romans 8:31-32
If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me…1 John 2:23
And nothing will ever separate you from my love again…Romans 8:38-39
Come home and I’ll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen…Luke 15:7
I have always been Father, and will always be Father…Ephesians 3:14-15
My question is…Will you be my child?…John 1:12-13
I am waiting for you…Luke 15:11-32
Love, Your Dad.
Almighty God
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When I first began this blog today, I considered sharing why storms (real storms) don’t scare me like they used to years ago…..but as I listen to this amazing and reassuring song by Casting Crowns, I am reminded that I am still “in this storm”!!! I can’t help but feel convicted that I’m not faithful to continue praising Him all the way through but He is faithful to carry me through!!! “Never left my side, though my heart is torn, I will praise You in this storm!”
But back to the rain, wind and loud, damaging type of storm: Years ago, I did have to go through a different kind of storm, more than once….lots of damage to our houses, yards, trees, hearts and added lots of fear! Fortunately I had a very loving and qualified Christian counselor at our church in AL who I loved and who shared God’s truths with me, along with various close girlfriends who “held my hand” through it all! Any night that a storm would wake them, they’d hit the floor praying for LeeAnne, no matter where I was at that time! I remember Miss. Alice asking me where I found the most comfort and it was in their prayers, the Word, my husbands’ arms and the arms of those friends! My stronghold at that time was to imagine my friends and husband around me, praying on my behalf, surrounding me with their prayers and then me crawling up and into my Savior’s lap where He would hold me all through those storms, while my friends and husband would continue to pray for my fears to go away, all the time circling me with their love and prayers! It was around 4 years that I went through some scary tornadoes, storms, wind, whatever was associated and they would always bring back smells, sounds and helplessness on my part. The anxiety attacks were worse than awful! I never thought I’d get past those fears! Finally, one day, in the hallway of our AL house, during the middle of what Katrina decided to do to AL, surrounded by my family of 2 kids and my husband, with my Bible in my hand, reading and quoting scripture (God’s promises), while shaking like a scared child, my heart pounding out of my chest, choosing to sing songs of praise to Abba, I began crying out to Him in total surrender, tears were rushing out of my body like a floodgate, I felt this overwhelming and amazing peace come over me like I’d never experienced before! It was ok, I didn’t fear what that storm could do to us any longer! I trusted God! Even if it meant we didn’t survive it or everything got taken away from us, we would still be ok! It was breathtaking and I’ll never forget the peace that can only come from God!
The verse I was reading at that very instant was Psalm 32:6&7: “Therefore, let everyone who is godly pray to you while you may be found; surely when the mighty waters rise, they will not reach him. You are my hiding place; you will protect me from trouble and surround me with songs of deliverance.” Selah. (August 2005)
I focused on that verse as the tears changed to smiles and hugs with my family, as the wind calmed and we walked outside to see the aftermath and as my kids looked at me, realizing the change that had taken place that day! I could also see a peace in them that comforted me about their future fears and how they had learned to handle them. Now, Zach will tell me that when there’s a storm, he goes straight to his Bible and reads till he falls asleep. Most of the time they sleep right through the storms! A friend of mine, Elizabeth, shared several verses with me during those years but one that I especially shared with Zach was Proverbs 3:24 “when you lie down, you will not be afraid; when you lie down, your sleep will be sweet”. Zach was terrified like me way back when and I was praying for the day when he’d find peace too. I know he has in his own way and I am so thankful for deliverance from those fears, they strangled me with their grip on me. A sister, ok, a chosen sister/friend, of mine in AL, Teresa, just asked me how I came to this place in life where I can sit in the storm outside and watch the rain now, listening for the birds who always sing afterward, when just hearing the wind would send me into a panic and I told her, while giving God all the glory, it was about “total surrender” and God’s promises then His peace came! I have to thank God again for my Grace girlfriends who’ve always had and continue to have a heart for me, no matter what, they fill so many gaps for me while they so faithfully continue to pray on my behalf, while the miles separate us, but the love holds us closer than ever! Hopefully this story of conquered fear will challenge you to trust completely and believe His promises, then you too, can have peace! Don’t forget that fear is helpful but the spirit of fear or letting it control you is when it’s not: fear is very real but….it can be managed! Your day of peace is nearer than you think!!!
2 Timothy 1:7…
For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.
The Growing Pains of Life
My son, Zach, has often times complained of “growing pains” in his legs, arms and now his back. (at least that’s what we’re calling it now) I don’t remember going through that when I was little. Kristin has had her fair share also and they are miserable when they experience the acheyness. Then, on the other hand, they’re constantly coming up to me, especially Zach and measuring himself against me to see how much taller he is and how soon he will surpass his Mom! Trust me, it won’t be long! Isn’t it funny how something you look forward to can be so painful and you have to endure that pain for awhile before you can experience the growth?! You end up benefiting from the pain! I’m still trusting God to bring me to that side of my “growing pains”! I have such a desire to know Him and to experience the plans He has in store for me! It’s just been so painful and hard to go through the physical and emotional draining of it for all these months! Fortunately, it is never Spiritually draining because He continues to fill me with His love, His heart for me and His promises! Don’t mistake that to mean that I’m always “up” in the Faith department but it’s not His fault, it’s mine! He continues to restore me and He’s helping me to do an amazing amount of growing! Yes, I had to get to a place where I could honestly say “Thanks for the growing pains and whatever you have in store for us, for me, Your will is what I truly want!” Not easy but necessary in order to trust Him completely! I want to make my kids’ growing pains go away when they’re hurting so badly. I’m sure God doesn’t like seeing His child, me, hurting either when I go through my very own “growing pains.” But, like me, He knows that the outcome is worth the temporary pain and He allows me to endure it “for a little while”. My kids are usually so excited when they get measured and see how much they’ve grown. I look forward to the day when I look at how far I’ve grown after all these everyday “growing pains.” I hope you’re encouraged, as I am, by the following verse, one of my favorite!
Jeremiah 29:11 (New International Version)
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
Full of Life!
It amazes me still, after all this time, how a certain group of teens can bring such laughter and joy to my heart everytime I’m with them! Sure, they’re loud, 
busy
Texting is like breathing for them
and rambunctious but they’re part of my world now and they make me smile! There are few things that put that expression on my face lately, 
since Scott lost his job, but these guys manage to wake up the hope and joy inside of me because of theirs. First and foremost, they’re Christian teens who love the Jesus I do 
and that makes a world of difference. They’re also leaders and examples to my son who is a preteen or “Tween” as they call it these days and they’re doing a great job there too! I know they’re lives aren’t perfect either
but they share their hearts with me, their sense of humor and their friendship, which I’m sure is odd – me being an adult!
Facebookin' all night long
They bring so much to my life but mostly it’s the smiles that show me their acceptance and love! They’re so real and that part of my reality is great! Can you tell I’m proud of them
REACH Teens (yearbook staff)
and consider them a blessing in my life? I do! I have to thank them for including me in their world
and allowing themselves to care about a 40 something teacher who might embarrass herself here and again but I know they’re laughing with me, not at me, right guys? To my Yearbook Staff: You’re all a very positive part of my life and an awesome part of my weeks – I look forward to Thursday because of YOU! I love you guys! 
Please let me challenge each of you with the following verse:
Let no one despise your youth, but be an example to the believers in word, in conduct, in love, in spirit, in faith, in purity. 1 Timothy 4:12
Love, Mrs. L (“Mrs. Lele”)
Philippians 1:3 “I thank my God upon every
remembrance of you,” 
In case you’re looking for a link to a devotional web site for teens:
http://www.devotional-reflections-from-the-bible.com/ChristianTeenDevotionals.html
my little wiggle worm thanks to Lisa Konrad
You know by now that I have this beautiful and very sweet daughter, Kristin, but you may not know how much of a wiggle worm she is! There are some times that I wish she’d just “BE STILL”. Like during school, dinner, lots of times…..I know she’s my husband’s because of the very same reason (ha!ha!)….he’s always on the move too…not so much lately because he’s had to learn how to “be still”. About a month ago she was going through one of her wiggly worm episodes and I had to go off by myself and laugh/cry to God. It had never been put so bluntly in my face how He must feel about me as a person…you know, when He’s trying to get my attention? It’s been very difficult for me to hear Him or even feel His presence the past few months, although I’ve felt very close to Him, if that’s possible at the same time! I know I seem so stubborn to Him sometimes too but He still loves me, gently reminds me of that love and patiently waits for me to get still and listen to Him! The things I have to teach Kristin are important and she needs to listen but I don’t tend to stress so much when she can’t because I can so relate! Instead I decided to work on my own problem of not being still so I can listen better to my Heavenly Father! Just a reminder: “BE STILL!!!!”
